Yesterday, as I ran along Lake Shore Drive in the dense fog, Thomas Merton’s prayer echoed through me as my shoes hit the pavement: “My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.”
Fog clung to my eyelashes as I disappeared in the rhythm of my own mantra. We trust in the road ahead just as we trust in God, humanity, and brilliant researchers and doctors. It may feel like the end of COVID-19 is not in sight. But it is.
Today, there is clarity – not only in the sunshine – but in the wisdom of Thomas Merton. We are indeed enough. We are not lost. And we are not alone.
“But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always, though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
Duneland Beach, 4.10.20